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Saturday, January 24th, 2004
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I am so happy!
Well first of all I had a great day..Chris came and picked me up and we hung out for a little while, than we went to his house. We hung out there, played cards, ate, and watched tv..than Kristin Leanza came over to Chris'. Than Chris and Billy left to go to the school where they were gonna meet to go to the game. So me Kristin, and Vanessa all played a game of Rummy..I dominated!! Whoo hoo!! Anyways, than we all loaded up in the SUV, and went to the game. First, we stopped at the mall..I returned some stuff and got a cute jacket, and a very cute pink shirt. All for a penny! It was great! I love sales!! Than me and Kristin went in to Bath and Body and well let just say..we freshened up!! haha! And, than we saw CJ and Bret in AE..talked to them for a little and went to the game. Ok, let me just explain. This team was ranked 27th in the whole entire nation..and we played extremely awesome..and beat them! It was awesome. Chris played like the entire time. I was very proud. Than after the game,we went to some furniture store..( Me kris, bill, chris and Vanessa & the parents =)) Than, we went to Wendys. Than we went to Chris. We watched WHERE THE HEART IS. I love that movie!! It was just a good night..I had a good day. I love my life =) I havent laughed as hard as I did today in a while..gotta love Kristin & Vanessa.
Last night was fun too, me Chris Vanessa & Kristin L. Went out to Pizza hut with the parents..it was a lot of fun. I dont know if any of you know ELIAS but, he was our waiter..wow talked our ear off, lol gotta love the kid. The game was good too. Although the team didnt play to its best ability, we won..so that was good!We were out awfully late, so than we just went to my house. My door was locked to my room, and the keys were in my room..so it was a long awaiting to get in, but I finally did! ( sigh of relief!!) Me and Chris talked for a while last night on the phone. I love it.
Ok, well Katie Wilson are you happy? I wrote a whole novel!! Oh and I downloaded A LOT of "YELLOW JACKET!!" lol haha
Much love..
Author: Ashlynn MacGinns aka SLASH
Church tomorrow morning, I gotta get to sleep!
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Wednesday, January 21st, 2004
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Well, I'm sitting in class doing absolutely nothing. Today is activity day and they got the schedule messed up. They said that yearbook activity day was 2nd block, but Mrs. Eatman has a class so the people that actually came for activity day are just sitting here doing nothing. haha, anyways-- Yeah Chris is at the NHS meeting, (probably where I should be too) But I guess you could call me a horrible NHS member. So, anyways..I miss Chris. =( I'm kinda bored.
Wow, the game last night was AWESOME, fabulous, wonderful, marvelous, did I say Spectacular!? wow!! Every part of it was great! Chris alone got 9 points, Jamaal did awesome..the pass slash dunk Donnie and Chris did was so awesome! I can NOT wait to get the video on that one..man! I was so proud of Chris, and most of all how the team played.They did awesome!
Me and Jenn did my eye makeup today in chorus, its kind of green. lol
I have chamber afterschool..(WOOT WOOT) I think Jill is gonna go though, which will actually make singing in this group some what of fun. haha
Man I need my license. BAD.
Holy Cow I am HUNGRY!!!!!!! Im definitely going to make an appearance at A Lunch.
Ok, Well I am so bored.
I love SOS ( remember that?) haha
Lifes good=) Lifes really good.
Oh yeah, I have church tonight. Me, Billy, Kristin L. and Chris are gonna go early though to hang out and probably eat though..it should be pretty fun. Im gonna wear my WHERES YOUR PANTHER shirt to rub it in Miles & Mitchs' face..haha =)
The only good thing about B lunch is mine & Billys daily Heart to Heart..other than that, I hate that lunch! ALOT
A lunch is so much better!!! =)
Lecanto went down.
I miss Katie B.
I miss Chris.
I'm excited about church, and Im really hungry.
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Sunday, January 18th, 2004
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Wow, I definitely have not written in here in a while!
Lets see, I'll start with tonight..I had fun! Me and Kristin Leanza hung out, went to church than watched Drum Line..oh and can't forget about the WENDYs Experience..lol, too much! We'll always be our only friends right?? Hahaha..too much!
Anyways..me and Chris took "friend" time tonight, it was good..but I do have to admit, I havent seen him since like 1:30 pm today..and I kinda well I miss him. lol, oh well! I will see him bright and early tomorrow..
Lets see, well I have really started to appreciate true friendships. I have been getting really close with Chris' family. Me and his mom and dad are really close. Like friday I was venting to Chris' mom about my stressful week because she insisted that I looked like something was wrong..and we sat there and talked.. Oh and Wednesday night, lol..I literally vented for like 2 straight hours to Chris Parents and Vanessa. I love them so much, seriously. We have really grown close. It's more than just "Chris' parents." Their like my friends..Anyways, so this weekend I went to the boys bball game friday-- UGH we so had that game. I do not like Jimmy T. Saturday we went to the funeral service for Aaron Weaver, wow it was very touching. I cried pretty hard. God bless his family, and the other soldiers. Than me and the Ramirez' went to pick up Kristin Leanza and than we headed to their game..oh after we had a pretty fun Furnitre store adventure!! Than after a "sjkgfjkshgjksghd" type of game..with a horrible coach, and bad refs..man we lost by 4 points. Me, Krazy Kle, Liz M, Burdett & the Ramirez' ofcourse..went CRAZY screaming at those crappy refs!! Man..anyways. Than we all went to Subway and pigged out..it was fun.
Tonight I went to the Hernando Church of the Nazarene Youth Service..They have a really good praise Band, I really enjoyed it. The people were overwhelmingly nice and caring, I couldn't beleive it. Pastor Ed shared his testimony tonight, and it was really touching. It made me think hard..Anyways, well thats the crazy life of Ashlynn MacGinnis for now!!
The fast is getting hard..but Im getting through it. Im not going to give in! =)
I miss Chris.
Alot.
Katie B, my sister told me you looked GORGEOUS for formal & I do not doubt it, I want to see pics! =)
Katie W, who was that band we listened to on the way home?
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Thursday, January 1st, 2004
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Well, I cant beleive it. I honestly can not grasp the fact that it is already 2004. That means that 9-11 happened 3 whole years ago. That means that the date we graduate is coming sooner. That means We are blessed to be living one more year. Its no more 19 90's. Wow, I mean remember when there was that big Y2K scare? Holy moly- This is crazy.
Anyways,I had a good night. Chris and I went to church with his family,it was a really good service. They had a special time for testimonies and such, and Chris' mom got up and was like "I'd like to thank God for my family..and all this" it was so sweet. I feel so blessed to be a part of it. So than we headed to his Titi's, and hung out there. Chris and I played Rummy..and man O man, way to bring in the new Years, I beat the heezy out of him. 540 to 245, lol haha! That is definitely what I am talking about! Then, His titi said that it was a tradition to eat 12 grapes for new years, so we did that, it was a lot of fun. Than we headed to Chris' to watch the ball drop. Right before it dropped though, we all held hands and said a little prayer. It was so sweet, His mom was thanking God for me and saying how much they loved me, and what a blessing I was. It felt really good to be loved that much. So the ball dropped, and Chris kissed me. It was a good feeling. Than we all hugged, and said our "I love you's." It was so much fun. THAN Chris and I got in our pj's and had an UNO-a thon. He totally dominated me, but I think he was definitely cheating! Later on, he took me home.
Oh yeah, my neighbor called me and said my dog was barking too loud. What a sucker!
I had a really good New years, I am so glad that I got to spend it with such loving and special people.
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Sunday, December 28th, 2003
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December 26th:
Ok, so it was a great day. I had a lot of fun, hung out with my family and Chris' family. Chris and I went to Super walmart for about 3 1/2 hours, and just walked the store trying on all sorts of stuff. It was a whole heck of alot of fun. The only thing that bothered us was the fact that its like, even when you are pushing a dang SHOPPING cart people just don't grasp the concept of MOVING OUT OF YOUR WAY!! Holy Cow!
Ok, so later on that night..Citrus Basketball had a tournament at Vanguard Highschool up in Ocala. We ate lunch at Wendys then Chris had to be up at the school at 4, so I went to his house and hung out with his family. We talked and had fun. Than, ok so here is where it gets HEATED! Ok, so the game was going really good..back and forth. Than, Chris missed a lay up, and his defense wasnt ALL the way there..( OK SO EVERYONE HAS THEIR OFF DAYS RIGHT?) Ok, well as you know CHRIS IS NUMBER 15- Yeah, well this old man behind me goes.. "man number 15 doesnt know what hes doing, blah blah he is scared. Is he the coaches son?" Took alot for me and Vanessa not to turn around and tell him whats up!! But THENNNNN he goes to the measures of TAPPING me on the shoulder to ask me, "girl do you know if number 15 is the coaches son?" I clenched my fist, ( ok well maybe not but thats what I wanted to do!!) I looked at him, took a deep breath, and I was like "Do you see number 15?" Old Man: Yes " Me:Ok, do you see the Coach? Old Man: Yeah right there, Coach Thomas right? Me: Do you see ANY RESEMBLENCE AT ALL WHAT SO EVER? OK if you havent noticed CHRIS IS FULL BLOOD FLIPPIN BORICUA and yeah well COach Thomas is 100 percent WHITE! Man
Ugh, Old men really get me heated. I was about to let him know whats up. He MUST have been in Vietnam, and he must have been having one of those "crazy" moments.
TODAY:
Today was a good day. Chris came over earlyyyyy..played foozball, and some cards. Then we went to his house, attempted to burn a cd for my car- We jumped on the trampoline and Chris bounced me like a "RAGDOLL" LOL!! Anyways, than we went to his Titi Malagaro's, than to the mall. We saw his cousin Brian & his girlfriend and we all agreed to go bowling since we were already in Crystal River. So we get to the alley, after going to Wendys- and realize bowling is VERy expensive..and being the CRANIACS that we all are, we just settle for going back to his Titi's and playing some FOREAL CRANIUM baby. So we played, and it was a lot of fun....we definitely DOMINATED!! After the game, Willo & Mindy definitely had some major "TROMPAS" goin on!
Whooooooooo hooooooooo
Craniac baby=)
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Thursday, December 25th, 2003
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Wow, what a day. I can honestly say I have never had such a blessed Christmas. It's not even just about the presents, its like..I have never felt so loved and cherished. I got to spend Christmas with not only all of my family, but I got to spend it with another precious family.
My little brother strolled out of bed around 6:30, and the presents began! I got a lot of good stuff, and so did my sister and Noah. My mom got a ring she has been wanting for a while, with all our birthstones in it. My Dad got a plaque talking about what a good dad he is. It was good to see everyone so happy. So, than we all piled up in my car and went to church at 9:30 am. After church I drove them home, and we started getting ready to go over my Grams for the big family shin dig! Chris came over, he helped Noah, my Dad & my uncle, set up some dragon thing, lol..( Its definitely gotta a guy thing)Anyways, we went over to Grams around 1 pm, all sat around the table. There was 15 of us around the table. My Grampa started out by reading a scripture from the Bible about salvation, and what Jesus brought us not only by dying, but by being born. Than we said a good prayer, and DUG IN! After a big dinner, we all headed to the family room, and began opening up all the presents. I can remember when Shannon, my sister, and me were real little, and we would sit there and try to talk my Gramma into letting us open the tree before dinner, lol. It seemed like every bit the adults took, took so long. Those were the good ole days! Anyways we got a lot of good gifts, and I think Chris was happy with what they got him too.
So than we went to Chris' ( I drove, whaooo) and when we got there His mom and dad were standing at the door, and gave us welcoming hugs, that felt really good. We all sat down and they just started handing me presents, it was very overwhelming. ( In a good way!)I got two VERY pretty necklaces, ( much use out of them), CUTE baby pink slippers that say "This is what spoiled looks like!" And SOOO adorable pink pajamas that say that too. Than they handed me this HUGE box..and there like pick it up. So I did and it was very heavy, and hence..it was from Chris. So I am like what the heck could it be? So I start to cut it open, and there was like all the little styrofoam things, so I dig in them all over the place, and I found this fossil box. I opened it up and there was the CUTEST, prettiest pink fossil watch. It is so nice, I really was in need of a watch too. Chris, thank you so much, you're so great! Anyways, the reason why the box was so heavy was because they were trying to trick me and put WEIGHTS in the box!! LOL Anyways, well let me see- as alot of you probably know I am quite the clumsy one, well yeah in the Ramirez household me and Chris are known for spilling drinks all the time, everywhere. So Chris' dad got us these plastic cups with lids, lol mine was pink and his was blue and he like had ASH put on mine, and Chris on his. LoL, he is too much!
Than we went over his aunts house, mingled hung out, ate a little and just basically had good ole family time. We played Cranium later when we got back to Chris' and I can't beleive I am even saying this- but.. Chris' parents actually BEAT me and Chris! ( For the first time ever, and the last time!!)
Well I hope everyone had a wonderful Christmas day. Goodnight & Godbless everyone!
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Wednesday, December 24th, 2003
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What a day! Lets see, I dont have my liscense just yet..but my Mom has been taking me out to let me practice driving, (under the permit rules) of course! We went to Super Walmart today ( A lot of mean people!), than Bealls..and a lot more running around. It was pretty fun =) ( Gotta love the Moms ) Anyways, than I drove to Chris'..( and he was definitely still in his PJ's) lol, so we just hung out..but I did not feel good at all. I was coughing like no other..ugh it hurt =( I just layed down and went to sleep for a little while, while watching MY GIRL ( woot woot) I love that movie! Than, Chris had to drive me all the way back to my house to get my Christmas Eve attire, so after eating lunch we went all the way back to his house..to find out we forgot to grab the movie HOW TO DEAL, and it was due by 8 pm. It was horrible, I got so stressed I just layed down and went back to sleep. I slept for a good hour, and it felt good. I had a horrible headache, like have you ever had a headache so bad that your eyes hurt to stay open? ( Well thats definitely what I had!) And I was coughing bad =( Well, Chris' mom was going to straighten my hair, but I just didnt feel good at all. So Willo ( Chris' dad) came in with some NASTY cough medicine, and Mrs. Ramirez gave me some pills..I felt alot better afterwards. Than, I went into Vanessas room to get my hair straightened by Mrs Ramirez..it took a while, but it turned out GOOD! =) ( Thanks Mrs Ramirez ) I love that lady,shes such a good and inspiring woman. Anyways, after all the beauty parlor stuff, Chris and I decided not to go to the Christmas eve Service just because that would save another trip out there, and plus we're going TOMORROW MORNING ( yes CHRISTMAS DAY!!) Anyways, so we drive all the way out there, get the movie bring it back to Movie Gallery, and I started feeling guilty about not going and spending time with my family. So I changed my mind, and there was ALOT of stress between me and Chris. Than, after we got ready Mr Ramirez gave us a little talk about Christmas time being a time of love and not fighting, he said we both needed to relax and take a couple deep breaths, and remember why we are together. It helped alot, and it felt really good after all that =)
So, the service was decent, not too long either. We left that and went back to his house to eat with all of his family, and OFCOURSE play a game of none other than the game of CRANIUM!
Well, I did pretty bad.. I mean honestly WHO CAN SPELL THE WORD ZUCCHINI backwards? I can't even spell it frontwards, and who can sculpt a CUBICLE? Holy Shmoly, but we had an overall win anyways =)
I can't wait for tomorrow. I know that sometimes it feels as if Christmas is pointless as you get older, and the sometimes it feels like the spirit of Christmas isn't even alive anymore. But honestly, its as alive as you make it. Open your eyes, when you see a little child laughing and smiling, or when you see your Parents smiling at eachother, or when you see your friends embracing eachother, or when you feel happiness..just know, Christmas is here, and you can keep the spirit of Christmas alive if you choose to. =)
Merry Christmas EVERYONE, and Godbless you all. Remember to keep the Christ in Christmas =)
Last Minute Thoughts: I wonder what Chris got me for Christmas, I love Chris' family, why does Bandit go to the bathroom so often?, I wonder how the family events are gonna go tomorrow, When can I drive with out my parents?!, I feel so blessed to have someone to truly love at Christmas time.
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Tuesday, December 23rd, 2003
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Well lets see, Today..HOLY COW, what a day! Like let me tell you how it is. My parents were being very "slow" to the whole driving deal, so I kind of lost the desire to drive in general Just because, there was no way I could have that respsonsibility of making payments, driving, keeping up grades, going to church, & Chris of course. There was no way! But than today, after a big whole ordeal at Superwalmart, ( chris & I had to finish up last minute Christmas shopping) we went back to his house..and we were wrapping when My sister told me to come home asap, b/c I got a car. So Chris & I went to my house, ( I drove, wahoooo) Anyways- So, we get to my house and my dad comes pulling up ( DRIVING MY CAR!!) Driving, my Red pontiac 1996 Grandam. He gave me a bouqet of flowers, and said "I really hope you like it." It looks pretty decent, nice enough for me to drive! =) hehe, So after going on a little road trip, we decked it up with Princess steering wheel covers and stuff like that =) It was most def cute!!
After that Katie Bywater came over to get her hair dyed by my Moms, she said it turned out dang good..so you cats best be watchin out for that girl!!
Than, I went back to Chris', talked to the parents, finished decorating SOMEONES christmas gift..than b/c of my rumbling belly, I was so hungry..so we went to WENDYS! After Wendys we went to the movie store, and rented a movie. HOW TO DEAL, well we watched it..Chris didn't really like it..he thought the movie would have been better if well, never mind. But anyways, over all it DID NOT compare to A Walk to Remember.
I have a really big _______ on the side of my head, and it is excrutiating with PAIN!! =) lol
God truly did bless me, and It really is awesome!
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Well lets see, Today..HOLY COW, what a day! Like let me tell you how it is. My parents were being very "slow" to the whole driving deal, so I kind of lost the desire to drive in general Just because, there was no way I could have that respsonsibility of making payments, driving, keeping up grades, going to church, & Chris of course. There was no way! But than today, after a big whole ordeal at Superwalmart, ( chris & I had to finish up last minute Christmas shopping) we went back to his house..and we were wrapping when My sister told me to come home asap, b/c I got a car. So Chris & I went to my house, ( I drove, wahoooo) Anyways- So, we get to my house and my dad comes pulling up ( DRIVING MY CAR!!) Driving, my Red pontiac 1996 Grandam. It looks pretty decent, nice enough for me to drive! =) hehe, So after going on a little road trip, we decked it up with Princess steering wheel covers and stuff like that =) It was most def cute!!
After that Katie Bywater came over to get her hair dyed by my Moms, she said it turned out dang good..so you cats best be watchin out for that girl!!
Than, I went back to Chris', talked to the parents, finished decorating SOMEONES christmas gift..than b/c of my rumbling belly, I was so hungry..so we went to WENDYS! After Wendys we went to the movie store, and rented a movie. HOW TO DEAL, well we watched it..Chris didn't really like it..he thought the movie would have been better if well, never mind. But anyways, over all it DID NOT compare to A Walk to Remember.
I have a really big _______ on the side of my head, and it is excrutiating with PAIN!! =) lol
God truly did bless me, and It really is awesome!
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Monday, December 22nd, 2003
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Well, today wasn't that bad of a day! I woke up to a nice hot cup of hawaiian coffee, and donuts :) Yummy! Chris had bball practice, than he was gonna come get me.. so I figured I'd just bum around till he came to get me..but change of plans fa sho! My mom and Gramma wanted to go shop the day away..so we did that! Got some last minute Christmas gifts..and my Gram didnt think she got Chris enough..soo, we had to get some more for him too! (( I hope he likes it )) Man, Walmart was crazy..and everyone seemed like they were in a bad mood,so I JUST STARTED humming Jingle Bells =) Some lady was like, "Why are you so da*n happy?" I said..well Christmas is about happiness & love isnt it? Geesh laweeze..people act like they've never got a Christmas gift or something? Holy Cow!
Anyways, Chris came to pick me up from Bealls, because I was completely exhausted..But I really did have a good day shoppin with the girls! We ate at Golden Corrall, but the sweet tea was DEFINITELY not that good AT ALL!(( SHAME ON YOU!!))
Than we went back to his house, watched a little bit of TV, and than got on the computer and printed out some Homecoming pics..=) Very cute, ( Thanks Jill ) So, than we ate dinner..ehh, it was like well I wont try to describe it..but definitely not the best thing Willo's made! ( love ya though!) Anyways, after dinner was done and we were just sitting there, it was Me Chris and Willo, we all just started talking about life and all the stuff that goes on in it. Wow! I feel so close to this family, there like 2nd family for sure! Him & Chris said stuff to me that No One has ever said to me. They made me feel like 3098549385985 dollars! I love this family, and I feel so blessed to know them!
Quote from Willo himself
"Just because I talk with an accent, doesnt mean I think with one!" hahahaha He's just way too much!
Oh, so we played a couple more rounds of UNO, with new and improved rules.. man I did horrible, Chris kept droppin those DRAW TWOS on me! Man o Man
Well, 3 days till Christmas..Oh I just can NOT wait!
I gotta get off to watch The Wedding Planner
"One last call to answer...feeling full of despair, dont think I can get through it just one last prayer. And its a leap of faith when you beleive theres someone out there, its a leap of faith when you beleive someone cares..and when I call out to you will you be right there? Right there. "
What I learned today: It is impossible to live your whole life to make other people happy, it is possible to help other people and keep yourself happy at the same time. Thanks You know who
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Sunday, December 21st, 2003
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Well, what a day! Lets see, I was in my room bumming around in my pjs..( layered up for sure, from sweat shirts to flannel pj pants) and Chris comes strolling in! You see, there used to be a point when I would really honestly TRY to primp, and make sure I looked half way decent..but now Im to the point where I'm like, ((Take Me As I Am.)) Anyways..I got ready for church, and we went with his parents to the Hernando Church of the Nazarene. It was a good message, Lots of Christmas carols! Than we came to my house ( so that we could some how be good members of the family and make an appearance at my little brother/sisters piano recital) So than we went to Burger King, in desperate attempt for a good lunch...came all the way back to my house, to go to their recitals.. Chris let me drive to the church for the recitals,Noah did "Oh Come All Ye Faithful"& he did really good being that that is a hard song! After the recital, I drove us back to his house, ( on the way we chased Rachael Gelin down and talked to her for a little bit) Shes so great, I love that girl. Than we watched Pirates of the Carribean after me and Chris got back to his house. He made us popcorn, I buttered it up..but ofcourse, we finish the bowl before the movie even starts lol. Than, like 5 minutes into the movie hes like " Want some icecream?" lol, this boy is too cute! So we chowed down some Cookie dough icecream!! Chris was kinda asleep, than we went & ate dinner with his family! Yummy..yellow rice, its my new fave! Willo ( Chris' dad)cooked it..and it was pretty dang good compared to the grilled cheese he makes..lol!! ( J/k) Than me Chris & Vanessa were GONNA play RUMMY..but we all decided to go with UNO instead. I was excited, b/c I am the UNO PRO, ( remember all that practice last year in Spanish Asha? lol) Yeah I won the first game but of course Chris says "oh that was just a practice game!!" Than Vanessa won one, and than Willo won one..and than LAST the cheater Chris Ramirez won one too. lol, it was a great day! I had a lot of fun =) Than we had a really good talk when we got to my house.. Did anyone see the stars tonight? They were GORGEOUS!!
By the way, Jill I called you 2 day..& sent you text messages but no reply =( I was hurt..deeply. I miss you Jilly.
4 Days till I get to see what Chris got me =)
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Jillain is the best, I love her with all of my whole entire heart!Jillain is the best, I love her with all of my whole entire heartJillain is the best, I love her with all of my whole entire heartJillain is the best, I love her with all of my whole entire heartJillain is the best, I love her with all of my whole entire heartJillain is the best, I love her with all of my whole entire heartJillain is the best, I love her with all of my whole entire heart
Did I ever mention that I love Jill?
A note for her:
My Jilly Pooh
You mean so much to me. Remember back in Mrs Nelsons class, when we would do nothing but catch up on life, and write notes back and forth? Remember us getting up to present our projects and just laughing our heads off? Remember laying on your floor and talking about life in general while ironing my hair? Remember when the heart to hearts we had in your drive way? Remember when we went to the freshman party and totally didnt fit in? LOL I truly love you with all of my heart..and I never want life, friends, time or boys come between us. I want us to start setting apart designated ASH-JILL time like before..we need it! Quote from Jill herself, ((Just Do It!)) =) lol
I love you
Thanks for everything, ( INCLUDING THIS WHOLE LJ DEAL)
-Ash
Better known as, Ashypooh
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Saturday, December 20th, 2003
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Well, I finally gave in..and got one of these things! In what I call a crazy life, I am going to try to set some time apart to keep updated with this..I'm pretty bad at sticking with things, so have patience with me!=) Anyways! So let me try to give a quick synopsis of where my lifes at, and how it got this way. Oh Boy, Here it goes. Well, lets see- Going to NewBeginningsFellowship.. (NBF) has helped me meet alot of new people, and re-kindle friendships. There used to be only like 5 of us in the youth group..but with overwhelmed faith during the summer, NBF kind of like, well how do you say EXPLODED! We started having like 50-60 teens from school come weekly.. and that gave us all chances to become friends with people we wouldn't normally become friends with, and it all worked out for the best=). You see, our youth group kinda went crazy in the summer...everyone kinda had a thing, or a "kinda thing" with everyone. As bad as that sounds, its the plain truth..no exxagerating. Than some of us went on a missions trip to Jamaica, ( most awesome thing ever!!) came back..and I went to Vermont for a month or so. I had a lot of time to get all of my thoughts to gether and to really figure out my life..
I learned that life isn't always easy. I learned that life isnt truly life, until it is fought for. I learned that being completely happy doesnt mean you get everything you want, it means that you are completely satisfied with what you have.
After coming back from VT. with all this new-found knowledge ( that almost seems like commonsense to know, until you truly discover it)..I began becoming good friends with everyone. I learned things about people that I never would have known, I embraced new friendships, and a new happiness came with it. I embraced an imparticular new friendship over the summer...that will forever be a part of my life. After a dinky hand holding craze..we discovered something much deeper. We embraced eachother, and became bestfriends. In only months we tried to learn everything about eachother there was to possibly know..( and I am STILL learning stuff) I only wanted to know more about him, I only wanted to get deeper. I wanted to see the side of him, that NO ONE else could see. I wanted to look through him, and see his heart. I wanted to know all of his thoughts, opinions and values. I could go on for days...It was like, when he smiled at me...my whole heart would drop. When he hugged me tightly to tell me.."it will all be ok" something inside of me knew how right it really felt. When we made eye contact, with everything inside of me I would try to hold off that smile that would overtake my lips..but something just wouldnt let me. Through all the crazed drama this summer, something so precious came out of it, and that was not just that we became an US, but it was the fact that I was blessed with the chance of meeting someone so wonderful and perfect. Someone with such integrity and compassion. Someone who truly cared about me, and wanted to hear what I had to say. Someone who valued my opinion, and embraced me when no one else would. August 16th was not the best day ever, but the day I met you was.
Ya know, I know that everyone says teenage couples never last..and I wont argue with that, because most do not. Even if we did break up, I have the dignity of knowing that, walking away from this relationship, I have felt more happiness, and love than most feel in a whole entire life time. It would hurt..YES, but not feeling love at all would hurt too.
Well, wow..that was definitely my first entry..haha, sorry for rambling =)
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